Dundeeās Paul McGowan left no-one in any doubt in the Dens Park press room on Saturday just how much he is hurting at the moment with an expletive-laden outpouring of raw emotion about the current crisis at the club.
Following the latest defeat against Hibs, he branded the team as being āf****** weak mindedā but spared no-one from criticism including himself.
The midfielder admits he is thoroughly fed up hearing how good a footballing side Dundee are and instead he is looking for the players to win plaudits for their fighting qualities starting next week when they travel to face Hamilton still looking for their first points of the season.
The 30-year-old said: āIām honestly sick of saying the same things over and over. Itāll come. This and that . . .
āWeāre f****** weak minded as a team. Weāre weak minded.
āWe played good football in the first half, Hibs rarely threatened us. We looked very good, passing the ball.
āThe goal f****** kills us. And thatās just the mentality weāve got just now.
āWhen we go a goal down, we f****** crumble. Thatās basically it. We crumble.
āOK, thatās maybe just the situation weāre in. Six games in. A couple of wins and weāre back up.
āBut Iām just sick repeating the same s**** over and over. I honestly am. Iām banging my head off a brick wall.
āIāve not been good enough. And none of the players in there have been good enough.
āNobody in that team has done themselves justice this season. And I include myself.
āIām hammering myself and Iām hammering everybody.
āWeāve not done anything for the club, weāve not done anything for the manager.
āWeāve let the fans down. And more importantly weāve let ourselves down.
āIām sick of hearing that weāre a good footballing side. That gets you nowhere in this league. It takes guts.
āHow many teams, outside Rangers and Celtic, do you see passing and passing to batter teams?
āThey donāt. Itās a battle out there. You have to earn the right to play.ā
Saturday match summed up Dundeeās season so far.
They held Hibs for the first half and felt they should have had a penalty when Kharl Madianga tumbled in the box but as soon as they conceded just six minutes after the restart, the roof caved in on them.
The impressive Martin Boyle slipped a great pass into Florian Kamberi who calmly steered the ball past Elliott Parish in the Dundee goal.
Four minutes later, former Dark Blues wide man Boyle hit the back of the net himself when he cut in from the right and hit an unstoppable shot into the far corner of the net to double Hibsā lead.
Dundeeās misery was made complete in the 88th minute when Hibs sub Thomas Agyepong did what Boyle had done earlier, cutting in from the right before sending a low shot past Parish.
Not surprisingly, the full-time whistle was greeted with a chorus of boos from the long-suffering home support.
When asked how Dundee can extricate themselves from this dire situation, McGowan replied: āI believe we can turn it around. Iām not saying we canāt.
āBut, at this moment in time, itās very hard.
āItās not just the odd goal weāre losing. Weāre not keeping clean sheets, weāre not scoring. Itās tough.
āAnd you can see weāre nervous, right through the team.
āI can feel the fansā frustration, feel the managerās frustration.
āIām not sitting here wanting people to feel sorry for us.
āWeāre professional footballers, weāre paid to play football, take criticism, take plaudits when they come.
āAt this moment, we deserve every bit of criticism that comes our way because weāve been nowhere near good enough.
āListen I am not sitting here bigging myself up because I care. Iāve not been anywhere good enough either.
āWe need to grind results out. Hearts grind them out, so do Motherwell. We need to roll our sleeves up. It is not going to be pretty.
āWe go to Hamilton next week. Itās only going to get harder.ā
As the goals rattled in, the Hibs fans took great delight in chanting that Dundee boss Neil McCann was going to get sacked.
McGowan added: āWho would want to be a manager? Seriously because a couple of results and then they are gone. Itās horrible. You never want to see anyone lose their job.
āBut he is still upbeat. He is a strong character, nothing phases him and we go again Monday. He said, āI donāt want to see any of your faces downā.
āWhen you hear that (chanting) itās not nice but the gaffer has been in the game a long time. Itās just fans. But it is a results business. We are behind him.ā